Thank God
24 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
If you’re having a bad day,or worse maybe. Just stay positive. Inhale, exhale, make yourself calm.
At least you have someone to catch to,someone to share to, your mom, your dad, sister, brother, or a friend.
Always thankful,you know,for knowing that you’re not alone living this life.
Prayer.
23 Nov 2010 Leave a Comment
in ceritaku
God,
at this time,
i’m begging You
to always keep his faith in You.
to guard him at every step he made and will make.
to give him strength to get through this situation very well.
God,
I just want to be the best for him, at least for this time.
tiba-tiba hilang
21 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
hmm…
kira-kira dimulai dari mana ya?
pagi ini, teptnya pukul 01:34 AM, gw yang lagi sakit ini, bukannya tidur, tapi malah browsing..
tadinya niat gw yaa cuma kangen aja sama semua itu. pikir gw, “udah lama juga ya, ga ngepost tulisan panjang di situs-situs gw.” gw bilang situs-situs (jamak) karena gw memang punya beberapa situs pribadi, yang kayaknya kurang keurus sih.. hehehe.
lalu, keisengan gw bikin gw buka situs pribadi teman-teman yang (gw anggep) paling deket sama gw sekarang ini. tapi perlahan gw nemuin kalau ternyata (mungkin) tidak begitu yang mereka rasakan terhadap gw..
yah, mungkin ini cuma kelabilan gw yang hari gini masih melek.
pertama, gw buka satu situs pribadi teman gw. gw temukan, dengan banyaknya dia bercerita tentang teman-temannya (bukan gw) di situs itu. banyak sekali. padahal, gw merasa, teman gw ini sepertinya merupakan teman bercerita rutin gw. oh, salah, gw adalah teman bercerita rutinnya. dari sini gw mulai merasa, “sepertinya nilai gw sebagai teman, masih lebih rendah daripada orang-orang itu.”
selanjutnya, dengan cukup sedih, gw buka situs pribadi teman gw lagi. kali ini orangnya (gw anggap) merupakan teman seperjuangan gw. setelah gw buka, bukan isinya yang membuat gw labil, tapi fakta bahwa akhir-akhir ini sepertinya sudah lama kita tidak berlaku seperti dulu.
yang ketiga, mungkin gw agak sedih ketika melihat teman gw yang lain, pada keadaan yang hampir sama seperti gw, diperlakukan lebih baik.
ah, gw semakin labil.
dan pemikiran-pemikiran lainnya yang tiba-tiba timbul dan membuat fakta itu semakin nyata kalau, teman-teman (yang gw anggep) dekat gw dimana ya sekarang? ya, ada. apa iya, mereka menganggap gw teman dekat mereka?
oh, mungkin gw yang memang belum pantas untuk dapet predikat itu (bestfriend) dari mereka. mungkin juga gw kurang memberikan hal-hal seperti layaknya seorang teman (baca: bestrfriend) kepada mereka. ah, mungkin karena jadwal kita yang banyak berbeda. hmmm, jangan-jangan gw yang membiarkan mereka berpikir kalau gw tidak perlu ditemani? atau mungkin gw yang terlalu egois untuk berpikir seperti ini.
pernah ga sih, suatu waktu, lo merasa tiba-tiba teman-teman lo menghilang?
yaa. ini yang mengganggu pikiran gw belakangan. sedang merasa sendiri.
Just another Mind Trash
24 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
I don’t know what to tell. I really don’t want to hate you. You force me to. Even I was/am forced to hate you, I really don’t want to. I already have too many words to complain about you. I’m sick of you till I don’t want to talk about any of it anymore.
Thank you for all that you’ve done to me. I’m not hating you. it’s just I can’t stand you.
Spread the kindness people. You’ll see your kindness gives people hope and happiness.
Prayer
17 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
Dear Almighty God,
I pray to You so I can get through this internship very well. I’m glad recently, because they let me be a part of their department. They give me jobs. They answer my question about my curiosity. They give me chance to laugh together. They’re so open to me.
I pray to You so my internship circumstances always as well as right now, maybe even better. The office, yard, shop, warehouse, staffs, supervisors, foremans, and all paces/person who have relation to me ( in work ) and certainly my friends.
I pray to You so I can get so much useful knowledge. To make me wiser, more mature, improve my social skill, and become a person who knows and can be liable for what I have done, and what I should do.
I pray to You so You can protect and take care of my beloved family, you, your family, friends, ralatives, wherever they are. Keep them safe, give them health, show them Your good way.
Amin.
Silly.
17 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
in ceritaku, internship, Uncategorized
too scared to open the door. even for asking who’s there outside.
only one PC. only one person : me.
only one PC. only one person : me.
oh dear you, who will be here in July. Please come here soon. I’m scared being alone.
Taken. (No Offense)
16 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
I always force myself to be a nice person, trying to be a friendly person, always smile to everyone. Like I said, “Spread the kindness”. But ever since I done that, there are so many different feedback given to me, which is :
1. Giving back his/her smile and kindness to me (without any side purposes). This kind of feedback is my favorite. I, and the one who give me this kind of feedback could be friends, or maybe best friend. We can get to know each other better or just have some simple conversation.
2. Giving back his/her smile and kindness to me (with any side purposes). This side purpose is usually came of their mind because they miss-interpretated our kindness. Your kindness can be interpretated that you are giving them hope or you like them (in the relationship way) or just other miss-interpretation.
Well, the no. 1 feedback is highly appreciated by me. But, the no. 2 feedback? I guess no. I used to be a little tricky about this feedback. I could have them told, not by me, but by many ways that can be thought by me at that time. Could be by my friend, could be by some social-networking sites, etc.
The tricky ways always make me feel bad. Very bad. But if I become an arrogant person, I guess there are plenty person out there who hate me and maybe they can pray bad for me. I just don’t know what I should do. I don’t wanna hurt people’s heart, but I want to tell them to that my kindness is just for a friendship. I’m taken by the way (no offense). =)
To You who I Barely know
13 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
in teman
Maybe we just haven’t had any chances to get to know each other better.
I hope you can understand my emotion and so do I.
Help Us! Hahaha
03 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
in ceritaku, internship, teman
It’s almost 10 pm,and I’m gonna start writing about my very today.
We actually got up a little late,5 am this morning. I got the 2nd turn to shower after Rizka. The water here’s not cold at all,I’d rather say warm like the weather. So it don’t matter what time I want to take a shower. I’d be pleased if I can shower like 4 time a day,because it’s all sweatin’ everywhere. But I couldn’t do it because I live here with 4 other member. If I took 4 times shower a day,what will the water bill be? The fan that we bought yesterday,helped us so much. But after all,the flat is very great now,we’ve fulfilling it with our needs.
The issue that matters right now is what is the most effective transportation should we take to go to workplace? Is it by a cab? Public transportation? Motorcycle? Or what? ‘Till now,we haven’t figure it out. Hmm. A bit hard actually. We should consider many things like,what if we’re not able to go home together because two of us have overtime work? And this morning, pander-age around the carry-stop made us confused. They all know that we are new in this city, they didn’t help us, they complicated things for us. Hmm. I remember, karma does exist. But I even more told myself that, when there are tourist who’ve lost their way or confused, I, as a member of the city where I stand, I will make them arrived at their destination safely. I will be their nice guide.
Think that’s lesson that I’ve got today. Off to sleep! Bye. Hope I’ll write another tomorrow. God, please make me a better me tomorrow.
(PS: I forgot to tell the Safety Induction at our workplace. It was fun though, with other engineers and a group of honest scaffolders that very touching our heart.)
